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10.01.2004 :: What a day!
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I have gotten off my blogging schedule and thought I'd pop in to say hello. I have the house to myself for a while and thought I'd spend it with you. Hubby is not home from work yet, Bethany took the train with a friend to Boston to buy some charity hockey tickets and of course, Derek is at college. I have no camera here to show you anything, so all you get is me. The camera is taking a trip to Boston too just in case any Bruins players are spotted! You never know!
Thank Goodness it's Friday!
I had a day that I am not so proud of today. Today was the last day at work for a woman who is not my favorite person. It is fair to say that the feeling is mutual. Our working relationship has deteriorated into a silent, barely civil working arrangement, with a lot of muttering under our breaths. It has been a process of awareness for me. I have never consciously decided to dislike someone before. It was well beyond time, don't you think?
So, today is her last day and so many options come into play. Do I swallow the attitude and fake a goodbye? Do I tell her off at long last? (Pent up anger. It's an ugly thing. And not to be unleashed willy nilly) Do I avoid her like the plague? Do I rush to the door and wave goodbye to her with only one finger?
As tempting as all these options were, I chose the chicken way. Avoidance. But as anyone will tell you, once you make a decision to skulk around and be sneaky, avoiding said person, you will....I repeat WILL 100%, money back guarantee run smack dab into the jerky person, uh....avoided person. Yes, after successfully avoiding for hours on end (it's stressful, I tell ya!) I turned the corner, and was face to face with her. "Uh, Oh...Um....Good luck".
This is how I chose to say goodbye to Ms. Pain in my Rump after fantasizing for months on how I would end our relationship.
See? You don't want to mess with me!
I always think of myself as someone who will stick up for myself, not taking crap, dealing with difficulties smoothly and effectively. Not so. Given the choice, apparently, I will turn heel and hide.
Some times self reflection hurts a bit, doesn't it?
I'm going to go knit something. And have a diet coke on the rocks. That will make me feel better.
And if I get one more spam comment from Bob, I may have to tell him off too.
Posted by Sandy on 10.01.2004 AT 06:30 PM
Comments
Oy vey, I go away for a couple of days and all this excitement happens! Ya know, Long Lost Pea, I would have done the same thing as you -- and I'm not proud of it -- HEE! I have a terrible affliction (I'm sure as a result of some horrible thing that happened in my childhood, but I digress..)of getting ABSOLUTELY TONGUE-TIED with any sort of confrontation. So I'm crap, even though I have things I want to say, therefore it's best to say nothing and do the avoidance thing. Maybe someday I'll get mature and direct and nonemotionally confrontational like my sweet daughter. :-)
Posted by: Norma on 10.04.2004 AT 08:06 AM
Oohh, I'll bet it was tough not to say what you were feeling. Funny how we can be so adept at confrontation in our minds, but when it comes to reality, it's really best sometimes to take the high road. And you sure did that, sugardoodle.
xxoo
Posted by: Kim on 10.03.2004 AT 07:24 PM
Don't look back, she's gone! Do your ding-dong-the-witch-is-gone jig and be happy. :)
Posted by: liz on 10.02.2004 AT 09:59 AM
Sometimes avoidance is the better part of valor. :) At least she's gone!
I've done the same thing. I always have the perfect comment/action planned but somehow it never happens. DH says I'm too nice but I think I'm just WAY too non-confrontational!
Posted by: Bron on 10.02.2004 AT 08:42 AM
You couldn't tell her off because you are a genuinely KIND person. I'd sure like to know what she did to piss you off 'cause I know it would take a lot. When I moved, everyone asked me what I was going to "do" to El Asshole. I was just so damn glad to be getting away from him that the move was enough for me. Guess what? The very last day I had to park my car in the street and he was right there in his truck, staring at me. That was my moment. What did I do? Completely ignored him. Wasn't gonna give him the satisfaction of seeing me upset.
I never made a conscious decision to dislike someone until I met my sister-in-law. :) Since then, there has been only one other person who won that honor. And if I saw that "other person" on the street what would I do? Walk right past. Then spit over my shoulder. :)
Posted by: Kerstin on 10.02.2004 AT 07:17 AM
Sweetie, put some Screech in with that Diet Coke.
Posted by: claudia on 10.01.2004 AT 09:57 PM
I know how you feel -- it's always tempting to have some sort of planned way of saying goodbye to someone you really didn't like, but more often than not you don't get the goodbye you prepared to have. I have found that to be a good thing, though, as I've run into a few of my least favorite former coworkers after their (or my) departure and it turns out we were glad to see each other and got along just fine at these subsequent meetings -- sometimes I even found myself wondering why they ticked me off so in a work environment. That's a whole lot better than seeing the person you told off and having an uncomfortable encounter.
In the worst case scenario, I go to goodbye parties to celebrate. . . that the person is actually leaving and I won't have to deal with them anymore! I went to one party a few years ago where most of the attendees were of that mindset, but we all smiled and said goodbye. It was a nice way to have closure without any anger or bitterness.
Posted by: Susan on 10.01.2004 AT 08:50 PM
Sometimes less said the better. I think it was wise not to fan the fire when the flame was about to go out! Hope your knittin' away by now.
Posted by: Mary Beth on 10.01.2004 AT 07:58 PM
If you are anything like me, you will re-live that last moment with her & go over and over in your mind what you could have/should have said. Don't! Just celebrate the fact that she is gone. Woo-hoo.
Go knit & enjoy your free time.
Posted by: Annie on 10.01.2004 AT 07:54 PM
LOL!
When I quit my job 3 years ago, I spent the last day in dread, waiting for someone to come and tell me what they really thought of me. In my leaving speech, I simply said "It's been nice working with most of you, most of the time" when I really wanted to say far more. :)
And Bob is the bane of my life!
Posted by: Donna on 10.01.2004 AT 07:38 PM
You are the 'bigger' person. At least you said something to her and it was courtious. No reason to flame her. Fighting fire with fire only burns you both. Let her go..let it be and be content with yourself.
Posted by: margene on 10.04.2004 AT 11:39 AM