Knit picks Andean Treasure yarn. $3.79 a skein! UNDER 4 BUCKS! Be still my heart. They are seen here basking in the sunshine. Even though the sun feels good from the inside, it's not doing much for the outside! It's c-c-cold today!
I started using the green as you can probably see. Moss, it's called. And I'm finding it a bit splitty. But I have found alpaca to be such. So that was no surprise. It is soft and heavenly, the colors vibrant. I'll let you know how I like it when I knit it up.
Of course, I should not be starting anything new. I have enough to keep me busy. What is with that? Not very loyal to a project, am I?
Motherhood Psychiatry
Bethany has now safely landed in Berlin, where they will spend the weekend before making their way to Nuremberg for the rest of the trip. I have followed the status of her flights online. Obsessed? Sure. But since September 11th..
I don't think I need to say any more, do I?
But I do want to elaborate a bit about yesterday. I was a wreck. On the inside. Never would I show that to her. The last thing she needs is her mother falling apart. I may want to. But I won't. Motherhood has made me stronger than I ever thought possible.
Bethany has always suffered from what I have coined "trip anxiety" for lack of a better term. I do not need a doctor to diagnose her. I"m her mother, dammit. I know her better than anyone. Every time as a family we have gone on a vacation, she becomes teary eyed before going. It is the act of leaving that is hard for her. Not the going. Or the being there. Once she has left and gotten on the way, she is always fine. And I knew that this would be no different. But what is different now is that she is 16 years old and is able to acknowledge those feelings and intellectually know that they will go away. This helped her lots. We talked a lot beforehand on how she would start to feel nervous and that it would just be easier to stay home. Sure, It's always easier to stay home. But not always wiser.
So, she made it onto the plane, eyes welled with tears. But she did it. And I have never been more proud of her!
As she was leaving, Derek was coming home for the weekend. On Monday, Andy and I will truly be empty nesters for 2 weeks. What will we do with ourselves? Will we find things to say? Will we turn into the most boring people on earth?
I am heading back to bed for now. I am still feeling pretty crappy from this cold which is now a hacking cough. When I start coughing it feels like I'm trying to hack up my big toe. And believe me, it's not easy!