« Saturday is for Powderpuffs! | Main | Leftovers galore! »

11.23.2005 :: Twas the night before Thanksgiving

The day before, technically. And I have a full day of preparations all of which I welcome and enjoy. Well, except for the bathroom cleaning part!
I have lots to be thankful for. Lots.
Here's the short list:
~ My home. It may be a little worn around the edges, but it did not get ravaged by tornadoes or hurricanes or flood. I am thankful for my home.
~My family. How can you explain the joy of loving your family? Words are incompetant. They are light in my life. I am thankful for Andy, Derek and Bethany.
~My extended family. In the background they always love and support. I am thankful for my inlaws and parents.
~Yarn. You get this one. Wool is always there for me. My needles await not only my hands, but my heart. I am thankful for knitting.
~Food on my table. An abundance of food, in fact. We do not hunger for anything in our family. And I'm thankful for that.
~Blue skies. Or grey, they bring me joy. I am thankful for the beauty around me.
So, in this time of thanksgiving, it is with a heavy heart that I come to understand how my Mother has just been diagnosed with uterine cancer. We know no more details except that it exists. More will follow with endless oncologist appointments. For now, I can't get rid of the flutters in my stomach, the sadness in my heart, the fear in my bones. I hope for the best and fear the worst. This diagnosis has shaken me to my core, leaving me thinking and rethinking of our mother/daughter relationship. I do believe I am more attatched to her than I ever thought possible. It is an attachment that runs in the background of my life. Quiet at times, but always there, always tethered to me. I did not know. I assumed it was independence from my family, but perhaps it was just freedom to live my own life.
So, I'm hoping there will be more to be thankful for. I know you will be hoping along with me.

Posted by Sandy on 11.23.2005 AT 08:06 AM

Comments

Happy be-lated Thanksgiving Sandy! My heart is with you and your mom. Cancer stinks. No doubt about it. I work at a Cancer Center in Boston (will not say name here for fear of Google), if you end up down in the Longwood Area give me a shout and I'll run to give you a hug!!!

Posted by: Bookish Wendy on 11.29.2005 AT 03:18 PM

I've no words, just lots of good and warm thoughts for you and your family. I hope you had a great Thanksgiving day and you're all enjoying the weekend!

Posted by: Kristen on 11.26.2005 AT 09:24 AM

You and your mother are in my prayers. May God bless your family with overflowing peace and love at this time.

Posted by: Gina on 11.25.2005 AT 11:39 AM

I am thankful that you are a balanced and clever woman who has the extraordinary good sense to count her blessings at the same time as you accept your challenges.
Wish your mum well for me Sandy, and I can tell that you are going to be a very good support for her. Let me know what I can do for you.
I'll be sending you strong vibes from here. Eat my share of the turkey.

Posted by: stephanie on 11.25.2005 AT 08:37 AM

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, and especially for your Mom. Lovely post on all that we should be thankful for.

Posted by: Kim on 11.25.2005 AT 07:46 AM

Sandy, I can't say for sure that I know how you feel because we all different experiences in similar situations in life but I do know that Knitting got me through my Mom's cancer diagnose with the fear and uncertainty it brought and the shawl I knit helped my Mom through the what seemed like endless surgeries, the radiation treatments, Chemo and the tears. Now the shawl is a reminder to be thankful of each passing day. I will keep you in my prayers too.

Posted by: Paula on 11.25.2005 AT 12:59 AM

Poor Sandy's Mom and family! What a scary diagnosis. My hopes and wishes go with you all that this is a minor speed bump in your lives.

Posted by: Laura on 11.24.2005 AT 01:14 PM

All good thoughts and prayers for your Mom and your family as you go through this. Wishing you all a wonderful Thanksgiving.

Posted by: Jan on 11.24.2005 AT 12:40 PM

Oh my God, Sandy. What you all must be going through. You and your family are in my prayers. Warm hugs, honey.
xxxooo

Posted by: Kim on 11.24.2005 AT 10:23 AM

I'm so sorry to read your news. We lost my FIL earlier this year to Lung cancer. I'm sure your mother has been diagnosed earlier enough and that her prognosis will be good.
Try and have a happy thanksgiving.

Posted by: Janine on 11.24.2005 AT 06:21 AM

all the best with it

Posted by: Nat on 11.24.2005 AT 03:37 AM

Oh, I'm so sorry. My family has been touched by cancer several times over the last few years. My Brother. My Mom had cervical (10+ years ago), then breast cancer (5 years ago) she is doing fine now. It is never easy.
I will hope along with you and will keep your Mom, you, and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Posted by: Paula on 11.23.2005 AT 11:23 PM

Sandy,
I know you don't know me, but I feel I know you. I consistently read your blog, and yours is the only blog I consistently read. I really enjoy you and your knitting! I know just how you feel. My Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer 12 years ago and I was devastated as she and I are VERY CLOSE. I am most grateful to say that my Mom is a 12-year cancer survivor! YIPPEE!! One of my sisters is in a terrible battle with cancer now. She stays very positive and has a very strong faith, and we have come to know how important that is. Three years ago the doctors gave her six months to live and, thankfully, she is still with us today by the grace of God. Please stay positive and have faith in God. I will keep you, your Mom, and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Happy Thanksgiving & Knit On!
Connie in Nebraska

Posted by: Connie on 11.23.2005 AT 10:59 PM

Hugs, Hon! I'm hoping hard for you and your family.

Posted by: Chris on 11.23.2005 AT 10:01 PM

I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. I'll definitely be sending good thoughts her way. Do be sure and enjoy Thanksgiving a bit more this year :)

Posted by: Vicki on 11.23.2005 AT 08:39 PM

Bless your heart! I will keep your family in my prayers.

Posted by: Shara on 11.23.2005 AT 06:46 PM

Yup, hoping along with you.

Take care.

Posted by: claudia on 11.23.2005 AT 05:47 PM

Very best wishes to your mother,and all your family.

Posted by: Emma on 11.23.2005 AT 05:11 PM

Oh, Sandy - I am so saddened to read your news. My prayers are with your mother, with you and your family.

Posted by: Jackie on 11.23.2005 AT 04:42 PM

My prayers and good thoughts are with your mom, you and your family. If you need anything, even an ear to vent, I'm here.

Posted by: Helen on 11.23.2005 AT 04:41 PM

Thinking of you Sandy, I'm sure that now the doctors know the problem they'll deal with it swiftly. Try and keep positive as I'm sure you will, big hug to you.

Posted by: Tracy on 11.23.2005 AT 04:19 PM

I'll be keeping you, your mom and all involved in my heart, good thoughts and prayers. *HUGS*

Posted by: Nannette on 11.23.2005 AT 04:15 PM

I'll second Anne, cancer is the scariest word. Warm thoughts for you and your Mom, no matter what happens this will be a Thanksgiving you will always remember.

check out hystersisters.com, it really helped me a lot.

Posted by: Elaine on 11.23.2005 AT 04:08 PM

Sandy I am thankful that the doctors have found the cancer and that they are going to be proactive in dealing with and eliminating it. I am thankful that you have such a wonderful relationship with our mother and that you now have a moment to realize fully what that means to you - most of us don't get that until it's too late to enjoy it. I am thankful that you have friends and family to surround and uplift you during this difficul, uncertain, and fearful time. I have been getting to know you through your blog for just a few months now,but already I love you. I find you a kindred spirit. My prayers are with you and yours! Be safe and ALWAYS be thankful!

Love,
Amy

Posted by: AmyDe on 11.23.2005 AT 03:55 PM

Sandy, I'm sorry to hear this terrible news. I'll keep your family in my thoughts and prayers. We don't celebrate Thanksgiving in Australia, but I'm thankful for all the wonderful people I've met via knitting blogs, and you're right up there near the top.

Posted by: Donna on 11.23.2005 AT 03:30 PM

Thinking of you and your family, Sandy. ((Hugs))

Posted by: Vicki on 11.23.2005 AT 03:27 PM

Sandy, this weekend with all those you hold dear around you, think hard on all the blessings you've mentioned and hold on tight to them to help you through the fear and uncertainty ahead. Know that we're all out here thinking good thoughts for you, your Mum, and your whole family.

Posted by: Rachel H on 11.23.2005 AT 03:01 PM

sandy, i'm sorry to hear that. but better to know than not. and now you can spend thanksgiving indulging yourself in spending some extra time with her, and showing her how much she means to you. thinking healing thoughts for ya!!

Posted by: carolyn on 11.23.2005 AT 02:41 PM

Oh crap! I am so sorry to hear this.

Hugs to you and yours.

Posted by: June on 11.23.2005 AT 02:29 PM

I'm so sorry to hear this. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

Posted by: Katy on 11.23.2005 AT 02:23 PM

Sandy I'm so sorry for this news. Cancer is one of the scariest words in the english language.

Know my prayers are with you and your family.

Posted by: Anne on 11.23.2005 AT 02:20 PM

You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I know that fear, that bad stomach feeling. I'll cross my fingers for cure. I'm here if you need a shoulder.

Posted by: Laurie on 11.23.2005 AT 02:10 PM

Sandy, you and your mother will be in my prayers this Thanksgiving. I almost lost my dad a year ago and I remember well the almost-afraid-to-breath feeling. Take care of yourself.

Posted by: Sonya on 11.23.2005 AT 01:54 PM

God bless you and your family. My mother is a breast cancer survivor and I understand the feelings of butterflies in the stomach, fear in your heart. Positive thoughts and the time you get to spend with family is one thing to be truly thankful for. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Linda

Posted by: linda on 11.23.2005 AT 01:43 PM

Sandy, best wishes for you and your mom as you go through another of life's challenges. I know you'll do your best to offer her every support she needs.

Posted by: Julie on 11.23.2005 AT 01:32 PM

Wishing a wonderful Thanksgiving to you and your family. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Posted by: Maureen on 11.23.2005 AT 12:45 PM

Sandy, my thoughts are with you and your mother --

Posted by: melanie on 11.23.2005 AT 12:17 PM

Sandy, my thoughts are with you. What a challenging time! You're in good shape, though if you can find so much to appreciate eved during times of difficulty.
I think that many of us are grateful for you!

Posted by: Candace on 11.23.2005 AT 12:17 PM

My prayers will include your family in a more specific way as you move through this.

I am thankful to have you to include in my list of friends.

Posted by: Teresa C on 11.23.2005 AT 12:16 PM

My thoughts are with you as well. Both as you celebrate the holiday and as you await further details on your Mom. Best Wishes.

Posted by: PumpkinMama on 11.23.2005 AT 12:12 PM

Sandy, you indeed have much to be thankful for, and many of those things you listed will be sources of comfort and support during the difficult times ahead. I will be hoping along with you! (hugs)

Posted by: Susan on 11.23.2005 AT 12:05 PM

My thoughts will be with you and your mother. Enjoy your Thanksgiving to the fullest, and love one another -- that's the best thing you can do for everyone!

Posted by: Aven on 11.23.2005 AT 12:01 PM

Oh Sandy, I know just how you feel as I have been there. My illness and then my mothers brought us closer together. Looking back it was a blessing in its own way. Hugs to you, grrlfriend and if you want to talk don't hesitate.
XOXO

Posted by: margene on 11.23.2005 AT 12:00 PM

Our prayers and hopes are with you. Thinking good thoughts.

Posted by: Sandy on 11.23.2005 AT 11:57 AM

my mom too was sick with cancer a few years back. and she's doing just fine today.

have a wonderful thanksgiving and try not to worry.

Posted by: maryse on 11.23.2005 AT 11:56 AM

Oh Sandy, I am so sorry for you and your mom. Somehow, though, these tough times bring unexpected moments of hope and a new awareness of what's important in life. Have a Happy Thanksgiving with your family. I'll be thinking of you!

Posted by: Mary Beth on 11.23.2005 AT 11:53 AM

Sandy, I am sending you pink light and virtual hugs.

My own mother (http://journal-to-a-muse.blogspot.com/) was diagnosed with breast cancer this year. I feel like I can say, and mean it and know it, that I can imagine what you are going through. Mothers/daughters are indeed such a special relationship. I wish you both the best - I know that my mother and I found such a difficult time to be easier since we had each other. Big, big, hugs.

Posted by: wenders on 11.23.2005 AT 11:47 AM

Hey Sandy Girl, I'm thankful for YOU. For your blog and for the fact that we've met in person and have a strong connection. Hold your mom close this Thanksgiving and count your blessings that you have a wonderful mother in your life. Happy Thanksgiving to your whole family!

Posted by: Carole on 11.23.2005 AT 11:45 AM

Hope all goes well with your mom - we'll be thinking of you.

Posted by: Jenn on 11.23.2005 AT 11:40 AM

Thinking good thoughts for all of you! Hope the day is filled with laughter.

Posted by: Cara on 11.23.2005 AT 11:37 AM

Sandy, I am thankful for your blog - for sharing your family and life with us. I will keep you and your mom in my thoughts.

Posted by: Amy on 11.23.2005 AT 11:33 AM

Sandy, went thru the same with my mom a few years back and she's fine. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family through this crisis. Need a shoulder? Mine's available.

{{{{{hugs}}}}}

Posted by: geniap on 11.23.2005 AT 11:18 AM

Good thoughts here for your mom. Happy Thanksgiving.

Posted by: Julie on 11.23.2005 AT 10:47 AM

Yes we will be hoping right along with you for more to be thankful for. In the midst of this fear, think back to the wonderful times you have had and hold those memories dear. You will be there for her and give her strength to go through the next few weeks & mths. I know she is thankful for that.

Posted by: Susanne on 11.23.2005 AT 09:57 AM

I'll be keeping you, your Mom and your family in my thoughts.

Posted by: Lisa on 11.23.2005 AT 09:40 AM

Sandy, my thoughts and prayers are with you, your Mother and your family.

Posted by: Kitty on 11.23.2005 AT 08:33 AM

So sorry to hear about your mother. I will hope for the best along with you, and keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you have a nice Thanksgiving. It's times like this that make you realize how much you have to be thankful for. God bless.

Posted by: Annie on 11.23.2005 AT 08:27 AM

Oh, Sandy, I am so sorry to hear about your mother's illness. I will keep her and your family in my thoughts, and hope that you will get a clearer picture from her doctors very soon.

Posted by: Ruth on 11.23.2005 AT 08:23 AM

Sandy my thoughts are with you and your family. I hope they caught it early and everything is treated quickly and she heals well.

Posted by: Amy Boogie on 11.23.2005 AT 08:21 AM