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07.08.2008 :: 188. It's not the heat, it's the humidity.
Call the WHAAAAA-mbulance, I'm going to whine a bit about the heat. Okay, maybe I won't really do the whining, I'll just let you decide what my whine would sound like and put words to it yourself.
Done?
Need another minute?
No wallowing now, it's not pretty. I know.
Life is a bit simpler these days, working, coming home and taking a bit of a snooze (I'm back to some kind of exhaustion lately), drinking plenty of water, trying to eat my veggies and eating a popsicle or two, knitting on a scarf and lots of reading. I just finished the book The Sister by Poppy Adams. It was a great story, well written and a page turner (for me anyway). People's character and relationships are a fascinating subject and one that I seek out in books. The Sister was one of the books recommended on NPR as a summer read. I'm glad I bought it. I'd share it with you but I already passed it on!
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My mind is busy with thought. At almost 80 years old, my FIL has the fight of his life with bile duct cancer. I was prepared for the grim statistics because of my research on the disease. Bob's cancer scares me to death. I wish I could take it for him. We know that having him in our lives until we are almost 50 is a blessing. But this doesn't feel very blessed right now.
It's really not the cancer or the dying. We all know that is coming. It's the suffering. That is what is hard to face.
As cancer becomes a huge presence in our daily lives, I will try not to dwell upon it here on the blog. That is not a subject that should be talked about daily. Just know that it is the pink elephant in my room.
Please keep Bob in your thoughts and prayers.
My FIL's Cancer sucks.
Posted by Sandy on 07.08.2008 AT 08:44 PM
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I am so sorry, Sandy. We went through it with Taz, and we are truly blessed still to have him with us, but every minute of it sucked the proverbial syphilitic rhinoceros.
I will be thinking of Bob, big-time.
Posted by: Lucia on 07.09.2008 AT 05:45 PM
Bet I could out whine you. ;^)
I agree with Joan. Not only is it something that touches everyone, but it is a part of your life. Keeping it in won't be good for you and you would be holding back from all of us. You know we'd hate that.
♥
Posted by: Cookie on 07.09.2008 AT 03:37 PM
I'm so sorry. I wish I could take the pink elephant away for you. My children have lost all four grandparents and there's no easy or comfortable way in dealing with this. That being said, know that you are a blessing to him and he will be comforted knowing you are there.
Posted by: inky on 07.09.2008 AT 10:50 AM
I was wishing otherwise for your FIL. Hugs to all of you.
Posted by: Chris on 07.09.2008 AT 09:05 AM
I'm so sorry Sandy. I have had a very bad feeling since you posted about it last week. I hear you on the suffering part. There are a lot of comfort measures out there for patients. Call me if you'd like. I have done this with my own mom and know what you are going through and will go through with your FIL. Please know that he is and will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers as are you.
Posted by: Manise on 07.09.2008 AT 08:56 AM
Bob, you & your family will be in my thoughts and prayers often. Both my mother and FIL suffered through cancer and I absolutely second Nora's hospice suggestion. Our hospice teams were truly God-sent angels who saved my sanity. Cancer sucks, suffering sucks even more, but hospice helps manage all types of suffering for the whole family.
Posted by: bonny on 07.09.2008 AT 08:35 AM
I'm sorry to hear this news about your FIL, Sandy. Dale's dad is 82 and lives next door to us and we are very lucky to still have him. I'll be thinking about all of you and wishing you some comfort and peace of mind.
Posted by: Carole on 07.09.2008 AT 07:17 AM
I agree with Joan, Sandy - don't hold back. We're here for you. I went through it with my dad, and you hit it right on the head. My best advice is to get the hospice folks involved before you think you "need" to. They are wonderful. Having them there does not mean you are giving up. It means you are ensuring as much comfort as possible during whatever time your dear FIL has left, and that's the name of the game. Sending love and prayers.
Posted by: Nora on 07.09.2008 AT 06:50 AM
Whenever I catch the book reviews on NPR I often hear about something I like. I have never tried their summer reading list. Perhaps I'll check it out as I'm not as likely to hear book reviews since I'm not picking up the boy from school atm and hence not sitting in the car waiting and listening to NPR.
I'll keep your FIL in my thoughts and even better, I'll make a donation to ACS in honor of him.
http://www.cancer.org/
Posted by: Julie on 07.09.2008 AT 06:10 AM
Your FIL's cancer is such sad news. I'm keeping you all in my prayers.
Posted by: Angie on 07.08.2008 AT 11:43 PM
I am sorry to hear about your father-in-law, Sandy. You all will be in my prayers.
Posted by: Mary in Boston on 07.08.2008 AT 11:15 PM
I've been thinking about him alot.
Posted by: claudia on 07.08.2008 AT 11:06 PM
I'm so sad for your family, many prayers are being said.
Posted by: Teresa C on 07.08.2008 AT 11:06 PM
Prayers on the way. I lost my Mom to leukemia last fall so I know how difficult it is. {{{HUGS}}}
Posted by: Plain Jane on 07.08.2008 AT 10:02 PM
I can comiserate, I just got off the phone with my mother (86 years young) she was diagnosed with malignant melanoma last fall (the day before my birthday-worst.birthday.ever). She sounds great and upbeat, but still there is the elephant in the room.
Healing thoughts for your FIL.
Posted by: Liz on 07.08.2008 AT 09:41 PM
Such sad news, talk about it as much as you need to. Sadly, most of us have been through it, are going through it or will go through it and it's always a big angry pink elephant. I'll be praying.
Posted by: joan on 07.08.2008 AT 09:22 PM
I am so sorry, Sandy. I will keep your FIL and your family in my prayers. And no wonder you are fatigued- that's a lot of stress to deal with. Take care of yourself.
Posted by: annie on 07.08.2008 AT 09:07 PM
I'm so very sorry. And dwell on it on your blog as much as you like, if it helps.
Posted by: (formerly) no-blog-rachel on 07.09.2008 AT 08:31 PM